4.01.2009

Why is it that whether everything is nothing, or nothing is everything, is a function of our thoughts? Doesn't the world stand as its own entity and not as the shadow of our philosophies? Maybe not. I would not know because I am not separate from my consciousness. The world is always tainted by my reality. It doesn't matter whether up is down or down is up, it depends which way I'm walking. Is it some kind of extreme individualism that weighs down our senses or is it that everything is a collage of images that we have already painted. Back when there were things that were new, were these concepts tiny births into a growing "universe?"(I put it in quotes because the word upsets me) Or are they the echos of parralel worlds and minds? They say that inventions all often spark up in places around the world at about the same time. But maybe that's just because of our technological and cultural connections...

Today i feel like the moderate choice inbetween everything and nothing. I am my physical characteristics, my personality, and my history I suppose(unless the past is something that disappears after you use it) but I am also a torrent of emotions, dreams, beliefs, fantasies and ambitions. I feel them, but none of them exist. I am a factory of emotions that is only distributed throughout my reality. When i feel pain, it is nothing to the world. Moreover, there is not proof. I can stare at these white walls or I can stare into my fantasies, it wouldn't make a difference; the concrete and the abstract coincide in our lives. I can take myself out of every concrete fact in an existential moment and fly to every star I've never known. I don't know what color the castles in Scotland are painted or the Amazon in Brazil, but I have been there many times; and laughed and loved and lived. I figure this life is a challenge to the molasses in my brains that wants to root my feet to a dream. But if the world is a shadow of our thoughts, then the challenge is no challenge at all. All I have is confidence to paint the skies where everything and nothing collide. All I know is that:
"El mundo es tan azul como una naranja"-The world is as blue as an orange(Marcos)


1 comment:

Aaron Dudley said...

I can understand this. Great stuff!